I. am. a. mess.
We found out today that our 15 month old daughter has congenital hip dysplasia and needs surgery within the next month or so. She recently starting walking and has a noticeable limp. She falls down a lot. She can’t run. It’s a little scary to watch her walk, honestly.
A couple of weeks ago we took her to her pediatrician (because hip dysplasia runs in our family and we were worried) and the pediatrician wasn’t overly concerned because she didn’t notice any hip clicks. She gave us a referral to the University of Iowa but said there was no rush. Our appointment with the U was set for SEPTEMBER 28. But my chiropractor said there was a click. So I called the pediatrician last week and asked if we couldn’t expedite the appointment and we were seen today. And they found hip dysplasia – a rare condition that normally affects first born girls – most often breech babies born via c-section.
I’m confused. This is my fourth baby and my third girl. She might have been breech for a short time, but she turned weeks before her birth and was born vaginally head first. I use cloth diapers (they’re supposed to help keep hips in the proper position). I hold her all the time on my hip (also supposed to help keep hips in the proper position). She rarely sat in her infant carrier. And why did I not make a bigger deal out of hip dysplasia with our doctor since there’s family history (my husband’s niece went through this exact same thing at the exact same age 9 years ago).
And I’m mad for feeling sorry for myself. It could be a lot worse.
I know people who have lost babies at 40 weeks gestation.
I know people who have lost babies to SIDS.
I have a friend whose daughter had half of her brain cut out because of uncontrollable seizures.
I saw children in wheelchairs with all kinds of problems while we waited TWO AND A HALF hours for our appointment today.
I feel like I should be happy it’s just her hip and not something more serious. But I’m not. I’m in tears.
I’m wondering how I”m going to relinquish control and let her be taken into an operating room to be cut open.
I’m wondering how I’m going to explain to my walking, climbing one year old, why she’s stuck in a 3/4 body cast and unable to walk or sit or climb.
I’m wondering how I’m going to carry my baby who needs to be held an awful lot and is going to very quickly become a heck of a lot heavier – I’ve read the cast weighs 15 pounds or more. (I had back surgery last year).
I’m wondering if this surgery is going to fix her problem.
I have a lot of questions, but no answers. If you’ve gone through this yourself or with your child, I would love to hear from you. Please email at at [email protected]